Being Different Can Be A Good Thing.
The largest percentage of us grow up just trying to fit in. And for the most part, it works. Teenagers sometimes put so much emphasis on fitting in that they will do things they absolutely know are not a good idea. If left to themselves, they wouldn’t dare do some of the things they get caught doing when running with a group of other teens that they really should not even be hanging around with.
Hiding in plain site
Some of us even get so good at hiding who we really are that we are able to completely fool even the people who are closest to us. We are always concerned about saying the right thing, wearing the latest styles, or being knowledgeable about the latest political issue. When the truth of the matter is, we couldn’t care less about any of those subjects. Society has forced us to behave in a certain manner just so we can be accepted. Because the alternative of being rejected is far too painful to even consider. Only a few of us really have what it takes to be able to survive by going our own way, by doing things our way. But speaking from experience I can tell you that if you do have what it takes to strike out on your own then by all means do it. But just be fore warned that it can be very emotionally painful at times.
Just trying to fit in.
All my life, until the age of 43, I had always tried to fit in. I would do and say things to try to fit in that just were not me. Trying to constantly hide things about myself in an effort to just be one of the guys made me constantly miserable and unhappy. Learning at a very early age that if I thought, spoke and behaved in a certain way I would not be ostracized, or so I thought.
In Constant Fear
Living in constant fear of being found out kept my true self from being seen by anyone. So, I did what I thought it took to keep from being renounced. I know they say that hindsight is always 20/20. But I was already being rejected, even as hard as I was trying to fit in. The combination of medical issues plus small stature plus trying too hard was a fatal combination. As I got older I began to realize that I had built a wall around myself. Thus leading to an even more damaging sense of isolation. I had created this facade in an effort to keep myself from being hurt. I’m sure you can probably imagine how well that worked. IT DIDN’T!
At one point I actually tried to fit in with the North Dallas crowd. For those of you that are unfamiliar with North Dallas, here is a hint. Not long ago it was made public that North Dallas was second only to Hollywood in the number of registered Mercedes, BMW’s, Jaguar’s, Audi’s and Rolls Royce’s on the street. This was a crowd that I had absolutely no business trying to fit in with.
A Fish Out of Water
Quitting high school in the eleventh grade did not afford me with the social background or the necessary education to fit in with this crowd. Having the Tourettes Trifecta ( Tourettes, OCD, ADHD) made me feel like the proverbial fish out of water. At one point I was actually driving a Cadillac Coupe D Ville, wearing custom-made suits and expensive shoes. Now for the pinnacle, I actually bought a floor length Mahogany Ranch mink coat. I looked something like a fuzzy bowling ball. I have always believed that if you are going to do something, don’t do it halfway, go all the way.
I ended up wearing it one time before I sold it. Here I was driving a Cadillac, working for Southern Fastener ( We sold screws to commercial construction sites) and wearing a mink. Combine all of this with my last name and you can imagine the jokes that I had to put up with. I eventually sold the mink, then the Cadillac, gave away the suits and shoes. I immediately bought a pickup, some jeans and boots, and I haven’t looked back since.
Accept Where You feel comfortable.
This is where I should have been all along. You have to accept who and what you are. There is nothing wrong with trying to improve your station in life. But being honest with yourself is the most important thing you can be. Truthfully, I am much happier since I made the switch. I would not go back for any amount of money. If I had a choice, the only change I would make would be to be financially comfortable. But then again, most of us would make that change. The bottom line is what ever style you are happy with, then that’s what you should do.